Bio: am I have had very few sexual encounters due to my desire to hurt and be hurt by my partner. This has always been a source of great embarassment,and until recently I did not realise that there might be women with the same desires.I am socially pretty much normal and acceptable. I have lots of female friends and am generally thought of as a kind and thoughtful person. I am incapable of real cruelty, and cannot hurt people either physically or mentally ( by bullying, for example).In fact I have slight doubts whether I could really hurt someone even when they wanted it, as there would be a basic conflict with my desire to love and protect them. but I am not sure I could deliberately cause permanent scars on someone.and i will love share my feeling with an honest woman that will lover me and make me as her husband.......